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Willful meanderings on an existential ice rink
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De Capo Press
After completing her second novel (one about a woman dealing with breast cancer that her agent wasn't very excited about), Gail Konop Baker was actually diagnosed with the disease herself. In this book, she takes the journals that kick started her column "Bare-Breasted Mama" and turns them into this smart, funny, insightful, and intimate book about an event in her life that really rocked her world.
I selected this read because it seems like cancer has been creeping around the six-degree-edges of my life lately. Neighbors, coworkers, friends of friends—every week I hear about someone else who was diagnosed. People who seemed to be the picture of good health are suddenly meeting with doctors and surgeons to form battle plans, knowing that any treatment they select is still going to be unpleasant. And I imagine some of their experiences are not so unlike Baker's description of trying to dress for the exam:
"...waking that morning in disbelief that I had an appointment with an oncologist. Oncologist? That word was for other people, older people, unlucky people. People who die. I stared into my bureau drawers, agonizing over what to wear, wondering why they didn't send that information with the postcard appointment reminder and how I was supposed to navigate all these decisions without more guidance? You get an instruction booklet with a toaster oven but no instructions for marriage or motherhood or cancer."
Cancer is the antagonist in this story, but the real trip is an inside look at the messy, emotional, day-to-day of a woman's life, a woman who by chance also happens to be a very funny, witty, and exuberant writer. I not only laughed out loud reading Cancer Is a Bitch; I also paused to consider my life as a mother and as a human being while continually nodding my head as I thought of yet another friend that I wanted to recommend it to.
It is the small observations that make this book. Her own analysis of her twenty-year marriage, of how love can ebb and flow with seemingly irrational meandering and then come back to center. Like when she describes dropping her daughter off to start college:
"And as I stand here in the quad I feel the rush of all the years passing in this moment. I didn't mean to rush it. I didn't mean to ever feel frustrated and bored, to want to get everything done, to ever think, 'When she finally grows up I'll get my life back,' because it isn't true. She was and is my life and I'm not ready to let go...and we're both crying now, our bodies trembling as she whispers, 'It's okay, Mom. We're both going to be okay.'"
That voice is what I enjoyed so much, because of its ablity to freak out and yet still see the irony, and the humor.
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I stayed up - afraid to go to sleep like I did in 2000, only to wake up horrified... but it looks solid... WE DID IT! |
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Edited by Lauran R. Hartley and Patricia Schiaffini-Vedani Duke University Press
As a student of comparative religion in the early nineties, I became fascinated by Tibet and, specifically, by Tibetan Buddhism. I had the pleasure of hearing the Dalai Lama speak on Cornell’s campus and meeting monks who were living in upstate New York as refugees. My college experience was decorated by “Free Tibet” bumper stickers, yet it has been some time since I have actively educated myself. I am not a scholar of Tibetan literature, but I did not find that to be any impediment to enjoying this collection of essays. I selected to read Modern Tibetan Literature and Social Change with the desire for a deeper understanding of Tibetan culture, and I certainly received it. This collection is very approachable for such a scholarly work. Some of the language describing the writing of poetry was beautiful - true for any writer, in any language. I appreciated the introduction to writers who I probably would not have encountered on my own, and most of all, I gained a deeper understanding of what happens when a country is taken over, or shall I say “liberated”, by another.
The sweeping social change made by Chinese communism to what was a relatively small, indigenous culture subsequently created the emerging writers who now struggle to define their heritage and their own artistic voices. These fourteen essays offer a comprehensive study that begins at the start of the twentieth century and traces Chinese rule and domination, along with the near complete loss of language and culture, for the subsequent generations. The fact that modern writers primarily educated in Chinese are now learning the Tibetan language in order to renew its use as a cultural signifier is fascinating. As Tsering Shakya puts it, “The development of modern Tibetan literature cannot be separated from the politics of identity. Tibetan literature emerged as an assertion of Tibetan space in a period of increasing intrusion by the metropolitan colonial inscription. For Tibetan writers and intellectuals, the Tibetan language alone has the power to preserve and reinvent Tibet.”
In 1975 a Swedish journalist went to Lhasa intending to meet contemporary Tibetan writers, and the TAR government could not present even one. This spurred the encouragement of modern writing, obviously beginning with very specific adherences, and several literary journals were started. Now, with over twenty years in print, these journals have spread the words of many talented writers who themselves are forging a new identity for modern Tibet. This book is a rich resource, as the first comprehensive collection of its kind, for any scholarly inquiry into Tibetan literature.
Review by Jennifer M. Wilson
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By Joyce Hoffman Da Capo Press
Joyce Hoffman read a book about journalists who reported on American involvement in Vietnam in the sixties and wondered to herself, “Where are the women?” Considering that she holds a Ph.D. in American Studies, a job teaching journalism to college students, and pens a biweekly op-ed column about journalism accuracy and fairness issues, it was not unlikely that she would write the book that would answer that question. On Their Own offers a thoroughly researched account of fifteen women who played vital, if varying, roles in the reporting of the Vietnam War.
For myself, when I studied the media industry in college, I became so disenchanted with the corporate system of information dissemination in the United States that instead of packing the tailored black suit in my closet upon graduation, I grabbed a rucksack and waited tables for awhile. But journalism still fascinates me, and for that reason, I wish that I had read this book in school. Many of these women simply bought a plane ticket and showed up in Saigon, determined to find their own stories. They believed that if they did their job well, they would be published by many of the male editors who told them they couldn’t do it in the first place, as they indeed were.
As a pleasure read, On Their Own can be a bit dense with historical detail that sometimes stifles the narrative of each experience; however, this detail makes the book richer for any student of the history of journalism. I had a hard time getting started with it, but I soon realized that my difficulty was because the first 100 pages deal mainly with more socially conservative women who believed in the United State’s right to be in Vietnam and felt that the people there needed to be Westernized for their own good - talented and outspoken reporters, but not women I wanted to spend much time with. Once I got into chapter three, I found stories that were not only adventurous, but personally inspiring.
Frankie Fitzgerald’s story is one that any aspiring and socially conscious non-fiction writer should become acquainted with. Daughter of the CIA’s director of operations, she spent years in Vietnam, on her own, writing with a sense of purpose. Convinced that the war was immoral and wrong, she won the Pulitzer Prize in 1972. “She once asked a Vietnamese associate what he thought would happen if the United States withdrew. He told her: ‘Don’t ask us that. It’s none of your business. We just want you to leave.’”
Reporting on a war requires much more than death tolls and fire fight descriptions. Today, it seems obvious that different perspectives on the impact of war on societies engaged in it add invaluable relevance to that body of journalism. We are still faced with government influence and spin. The more people are reporting on events, the better we can understand them and use that knowledge to avoid mistakes in the future. Right?
Review by Jennifer M. Wilson
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An American Fable If you grow up in Hawaii, raised by your grandparents, you're "exotic, different." Grow up in Alaska eating mooseburgers, a quintessential American story? If your name is Barack you're a radical, unpatriotic Muslim. Name your kids Willow, Trig and Track, you're a maverick? Graduate from Harvard law School and you are unstable. Attend 5 different small colleges before graduating, you're well grounded? If you spend 3 years as a brilliant community organizer, become the first black President of the Harvard Law Review, create a voter registration drive that registers 150,000 new voters, spend 12 years as a Constitutional Law professor, spend 8 years as a State Senator representing a district with over 750,000 people, become chairman of the state Senate's Health and Human Services committee, spend 4 years in the United States Senate representing astate of? 13 million people while sponsoring 131 bills and serving on the Foreign Affairs, Environment and Public Works and Veteran's Affairs committees, you don't have any real leadership experience. > If your total resume is: local weather girl, 4 years on the city council and 6 years as the mayor of a town with less than 7,000 people, 20 months as the governor of a state with only 650,000 people, then you're qualified to become the country's second highest ranking executive? If you have been married to the same woman for 19 years while raising 2 beautiful daughters, all within Protestant churches, you're not a real Christian. If you cheated on your first wife with a rich heiress, and left your disfigured wife and married the heiress the next month, you're a Christian.? If you teach responsible, age appropriate sex education, including the proper use of birth control, you are eroding the fiber of society. If , while governor, you staunchly advocate abstinence only, with no other option in sex education in your state's school system while your unwed teen daughter ends up pregnant , you're very responsible.? If your wife is a Harvard graduate laywer who gave up a position in a prestigious law firm to work for the betterment of her inner city community, then gave that up to raise a family, your family's values don't represent America's. If you're husband is nicknamed "First Dude", with at least one DWI conviction and no college education, who didn't register to vote until age 25 and once was a member of a group that advocated the secession of Alaska from the USA, your family is extremely admirable.?
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So JMW.com is gone - that's fine... I changed my name anyway. The kids are almost three and a half, one potty trained, one pending... Sleeping in big beds, asking me a million questions that make me question my own judgement when I answer them honestly. But life is good. A writer's critique group here keeps me sane, my Ebay mama side biz keeps me in pocket change, and reviews help me find a place in the greater world beyond the windshield of the minivan. A brother is due to arrive later this month and an old friend is flying in for a visit. I watched Bourdain in Seattle last night after my writer's group met, and for the first time I didn't feel that ache of missing a place almost as much as you would miss a person. For the first time, I realized that I am exactly where I need to be, and that the next few years are going to really and truly determine the rest of my life. If I can pull off the hat trick I so desire, everything will work out just fine... and if not? Well, the sushi around here has improved 100% in the last three years, so I think I'll manage. Preschool starts next month. I can TASTE those hours of time... I am going to drop them off at school and take the laptop to the nearby coffee house and type for my life. It isn't much - those hours... but I have learned a lot in the last five years - about myself, my craft, life in general. And I am ready to do it without the net.
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By Robert Paarlberg Harvard University PressAs a mom who does what I can to buy organic food for my family, I completely understand the general distaste most of us have for genetically modified (GM) foods. The very thought of vegetables altered by scientists in labs seems creepy and somehow inherently wrong, doesn’t it? But when I read Starved for Science, I quickly realized that such a romanticized and emotional standpoint in such a critical debate as starvation is not only uninformed, it is just plain irresponsible. I also realized that, whether we like it or not, most of us are already eating GM foods on a daily basis. In plain language and with plentiful sources to back up his positions, Paarlberg describes how in first world countries, where food is plentiful and obesity more of a problem than starvation, people can afford to pine for the days of small neighborhood farms - and can turn up their noses at the agribusiness and subsequent science that has allowed us to take for granted having not only enough to eat, but a wide choice in what and where we get our food. In Europe, the negative public opinion toward genetically modified organisms (GMO’s) has led to labeling and bans on imports suspected to be “contaminated” by genetically altered seeds. Greenpeace and many NGO’s are working actively to keep African farmers on small plots of land using techniques that date back thousands of years, but to the detriment and hardship of those very farmers. Paarlberg describes how rich countries have come to fear and dislike GMO’s, stopping funding and support easily where food is in no shortage, and yet when it is convenient, still continue to fund their use in the pharmaceutical industry where a longevity benefit can be gained. And governments in African countries situated in urban areas that are highly influenced by European bias, both in cultural influence and monetary flow, follow suit. Therefore, they are not developing their own programs to find strains of seeds that could resist drought, and it isn’t worth enough money to anyone else to do so for them. The majority of small farms in Africa are currently run by women, as men often leave to find other jobs in mines or more urban areas to supplement family incomes. Children stay out of school to help with the farming, and they do it all with wooden tools and poorly fed animal labor. Green movements in China and India have brought these countries to a position where starvation in no longer such a pressing issue; however, in Africa the problem is worse than ever. Paarlberg admits to having kept his research a bit under wraps until now, knowing the reaction he would get from his own circle of friends and colleagues. It could be said that being ‘socially conscious’ has taken on certain assumptions (and presumptions) among the wealthier strata of our urban world with a borg-like uniformity, and in the case of poverty in Africa, maintaining a position of being purely organic could easily be likened to saying “let them eat cake.” Review by Jennifer M. Wilson
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Rough GuidesIn the mid-nineties I spent about a month living out of my car in California. I drove, camped, and couch surfed from Eureka to San Diego, and many points in between. Before returning home, I went to Lake Tahoe and then continued north to Washington State via Mt. Shasta. I didn’t take a guidebook with me; it didn’t occur to me since I knew I wouldn’t be needing hotel and restaurant reviews. At the time I lived on an island, in a cabin, without a computer or internet. When I rolled into a town, I just picked up the local “city paper” or equivalent and found the friendliest looking coffee shop to go to and learn what I could about where I was. I read bulletin boards and just walked or drove around to see what was there. The Rough Guide to California would have been a fabulous addition to this trip. The writers let you in on everything they know, and they are consummate travelers. You can get major hotel information, of course, but you also get hostel and camping information, the secret sweet spots in a city, and some history and bits of information that make travel that much more enjoyable. For instance, I was not aware that more lesbians are moving over to Oakland from San Francisco these days, but I feel like I am 'in the know' now that I do. A lot of guides also forget about the details of visiting the deserts, mountains and park trails, and the best ways to go about seeing them, but here you can get that. Since my rubber tramp days, I have traveled to a lot of places around the world. And as my means increased, I utilized travel websites to get insider information on where to go and what to look for. I also incorporated the more standard guides into my research; Frommer’s and Fodor’s became companions of mine, along with Lonely Planet. From now on, Rough Guides will be included in my library. I love to travel. I love the smells, the sights, the people, the food, the feel of a different place, and I want to understand why and how it all came to be that way. I am obsessed with finding the inside spots, staying in odd and eclectic places and avoiding tourist traps whenever possible. If you are like me in this predilection, the Rough Guides are a great find. Travel guides tend to tell you about what they find most interesting or worthwhile in a place, and in the 9th edition of The Rough Guide to California, you get to explore California with authors who are not only interesting and funny, but also witty and talented writers. I enjoyed reading it, even in the sameness of my own living room. Review by Jennifer M. Wilson Click here to buy: |
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Come and check out my newest blog online with the Daily Local newspaper. It is under the blog banner and is called "Two Plus Two Is For..." it is mainly about being a parent... mainly. |
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Saturday, February 9, 2008 By Bathsheba Monk PicadorWith a Chicago Tribune best book of the year pick and good reviews from the likes of the New Yorker and Esquire, it should be no huge surprise that Bathsheba Monk is an exciting new talent. However, I didn't know all of that when I started reading this book. I selected it because I am a writer who also lives in the quirky state of Pennsylvania, and that was enough to pique my interest. By page two, I knew I was in for a treat. There are several moments during this collection of stories that have stayed with me. In "Congratulations, Goldie Katowitz," a young woman admits to her Uncle that she may not have the skill to become the writer she wants to be. "It was true. Every time I tried to imagine the lives of people I knew, it was like creating fanciful, useless additions to structures that couldn't support them. The whole thing crumbled." I like the fact that Bathsheba Monk can pin point and describe such an artistic hurdle and then so deftly overcome it by giving us such a rich and dynamic population. In her description of Theresa, the Hollywood starlet who reaches for a glass that isn't there, she writes that she later jumps up, "her drink welded to her fist." A simple phrase, but placed there it suddenly conveys all of her connection to and loathing of the town of Cokesville. And so voila, you have a character upon whose head you can practically balance a book. But she is only one of a large cast of such succinctly described and original personalities. Now You See It… is a collection of short stories, but the stories are woven together making it feel closer to novel form. Characters reoccur, develop from one story to the next, and so when you become attached to one you know there is a possibility you will meet them again in future pages, as so often you do. Spanning over forty years, each story is anchored with the year it is set in and then you are either in Cokesville, a dying mining town, or out of it, having escaped with one of its eager and often slightly bitter refugees. Anyone who knows what it is like to hate a place and want nothing more than to leave it will feel for them, and anyone who knows how impossible it is to ever completely leave your roots behind will find the often morbid moments as funny as they are tragic. Review by Jennifer M. Wilson Click here to buy: |
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I joined this site, Good Reads - I like the concept and it interests me. But on another list I subscribe to there was a complaint about spam from the site... and I did notice that as friends updated I kept getting emails ... and although I do care, I didn't need the notification. As I am sure none of you needed any on what I added to my own list. So, I looked into it and you can adjust preferences to never receive email updates. I figured for anyone I have sucked into this who is now composing a complaint email to me - I'll post here and save you the efforts... I am now in the know! Peace, J |
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It is 13 degrees outside. There is a pink footy pajama toe tapping on the corner of my laptop. Ten minutes later now. Naps are a thing of the past, as you can probably tell by my month-long hiatus from LJ, the days are much more full, and far more hectic. My kids, now small people with questions and stories to tell, requiring sincere attention, creative negotiation and thoughtful activity coordination most waking hours. About 45 minutes later. One child dressed, one still in PJs, the playdough is out and the temperature is up a few degrees. After filling a binder with notes and outlines, scene sketches and character designs, last year’s novel is on a shelf. The reviews keep me feeling semi-human, but the New Year brought with it a crush from the inside. The usual… going over of past expectations and defeats, plans for future projects, the constant reminders that what I am doing is of value even though being the point person to two two-year-olds can often feel like indentured servitude wrapped tightly around phases of delirious joy. One hour and twenty minutes later. Nightmares have plagued me; coffin lids closing, rings made of glass cutting into fingers, friends in trouble… but at least I know enough now to read the signs. I know that signs of death do not literally mean such – they only mean change, and not necessarily to the negative. I know that the images of suffocation are only signifiers of the feelings I am already acutely aware of. But this time it is not socializing that will solve my own twists, it is only work and life evolution that will relieve my suffering. It is good negativity, positive suffering I am speaking of. The sort that motivates and births new life. My daughter can dance, closing her eyes, moving and acting out the music. My son remembers everything, and can too often read my mind. Life is good, more often could not be better, but I owe a bit more and I feel like I had better get started. |
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My review of Democracy Detained in Feminist Review: By Barbara Olshansky Seven Stories PressBarbara Olshansky knows what she is talking about. Her professional credits and recent experiences - for example, as one of the lead attorneys in a U.S. Supreme Court case exposing unlawful incarcerations in Guantanamo, Cuba - have given her access. She is privy to a wealth of information that most of us could not possibly get our hands on even if we had a J.D., government contacts, and the time and energy to try. This is not a book that you write to make a great sum of money, nor is it a book you write without fear of retribution. She has written this book as a warning to the citizens of the United States that our country is under attack from within, and our Constitution is in great danger of being usurped and warped in ways that will take away our basic freedoms and give the executive branch a tyrannical amount of power. Only six weeks after 9/11, Congress passed the US PATRIOT Act, a piece of legislature that, in one fell swoop, amended dozens of laws and was put together with haste from bills that had previously been rejected. Olshansky maintains that the fear and grief this country was experiencing at the time was deliberately taken advantage of as part of, “a much larger agenda incubated by right wing organizations like Project for the New American Century… Writings by Project’s members and supporters – who include… Cheney… Rumsfeld, and… Wolfowitz - expound its positions promoting U.S. global domination.” She expounds upon the ways in which this initial loosening of checks and balances has continued and how the Bush administration has pushed to further its grab for unchecked power. Each chapter provides a chilling layout of what our government has been up to concerning policies that violate human rights and our own criminal laws. The documented torture and indefinite detention of people without representation or charge by our own government continues today, as I write this. Floating prisons in countries we publicly denounce for their human rights violations, the disappearing of people without information or contact with their relatives, these things are almost mind-boggling when laid out in this way, by someone who has seen the documents and has heard the stories from the victims themselves. It is a hard pill to swallow when there is always the option of sitting on your couch and watching ‘reality’ television or Hollywood films woven out of cotton candy and vanilla icing, but our future is in peril. The fabric of our Constitution is in peril. Our global reputation and the safety of our own citizens is in peril, and this book is just one of the ways brave and brilliant voices are attempting to get us to listen and get up off of our collective asses. Review by Jennifer M. Wilson |
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Posted Dec. 11th, in Feminist Review :
By Haifa Zangana Seven Stories PressThe most startling thing to me about Haifa Zangana’s book, City of Widows, is not her assertion that the women of Iraq are suffering under the current occupation. What left me quaking was the power of internal perspective and history that she offers, and her informed explanations of both policy and practice that reveal the extent of the damage that the United States has done to Iraq and the people who live (or used to live) there. Despite having been a prisoner of the Ba’ath regime, she does not blast the party with malice, nor does she paint Saddam Hussein as an evil icon. Instead, she covers the recent history of Iraq just as a U.S. citizen would explain our own century’s historical events: acknowledging past mistakes in leadership, yet maintaining a priority of concern for the country’s current well being. She explains that, “The woman as a fighter looms large in the Arab world. For us teenagers, it was Jamilah,” (a young female fighter in the Algerian resistance who was imprisoned and tortured by the French in the early sixties), “not a pop singer or a supermodel, who served as our role model.” Feminist publications, prominent women of the arts influencing policy, and accessible higher education were strides already made by the women of Iraq prior to the economic collapse of the country after the first U.S. bombings and sanctions in the 1990s. More than ninety women in Iraq become widows each day now, and there are over one million widows nationwide as a result of this war, each struggling to raise their families in an atmosphere of instability and paranoia. She gives a scathing account of government funded NGOs, like the WFFI (Women for a Free Iraq), launched publicly in 2003, whose primary role is to support the Bush Administration’s line on the war in Iraq. She criticizes that they chose “to present the human rights case for intervention in Iraq,” when the case for war was thin. Thus they chose to be the female face of the invasion, and came to be seen by most Iraqis as colonial feminists… who “spared little concern for their sisters who would suffer.” And, “while Baghdad was being shaken to its foundations by B52 bombings… members of the WFFI made more than 200 media appearances, including an interview with Barbara Walters to “offer their support to President Bush for his principled leadership.” She writes of how on the eve of Iraq’s invasion of Kuwait, U.S. ambassador April Glaspie was summoned to Saddam’s office, and in that meeting, indicated that the U.S. would not oppose his plans for invasion. “In response to the invasion, the United States bombed Iraq for six weeks…Thirteen years of economic sanctions, or the 'siege' as Iraqis called it, was established by UN resolution 661 of August 6, 1990… In order to survive, Iraqis had to sell every material thing of value. By the mid-nineties, half a million children died, a crime considered by many to be genocide.” And yet the U.S. expected to be welcomed as saviors only a few years later after bombing the country once more. She concludes with information about anti-occupation organizations now working to gather support and to unite against the forces (U.S. forces) that have ravaged their country. One of these is IWW (Iraqi Women’s Will), one of the few women’s organizations that existed prior to the invasion. And she explains that, “In refusing to take part in initiatives by the U.S.-led occupation or its Iraqi allies, which usually offer material and social advantages, women practice passive resistance.” The final sentence of this book sums up what the compact and powerful pages reveal: “But for Iraqis, the presence of occupation troops and the crimes they are committing is the main story, and the question is how to stop them.” Review by Jennifer M. Wilson |
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Our new dryer broke. It is under warranty but the service tech couldn't come out until Friday, so a week's worth of laundry has piled up in baskets and corners, waiting. Laundry service around here is pretty continual. Averaging two loads a day, laundry figures heavily into the routine; from collection to sort to running through to final sort and distribution, it is a process I can never completely forget about, not even for a day. Then last night, I woke from a deep sleep to the cry of my daughter. I waited to hear if it was a nightmare that required action or just a sleep cry. "Maaaaaahmy!" Action required. I stumbled across piles of laundry to the kid's room where C. is sitting up in her crib, arms stretched out to show me what had happened. "Mommy, look! On my bah, on my pillow, on my blanket, mommy... oh no!" And there spackled around the corners of each identified object was thick orange-colored vomit. "Oh, honey..." "Mommy... what Tabbell doing mommy?" inquired Ev, standing up in his crib to investigate. I scooped her up, assessed the damage and began to strip off her pajamas. I found replacements in a drawer and began to get her changed. "She's sick honey, it's ok." "Mommy, I want to get up mommy." "No honey, please stay there. I have to change these sheets." "I want to go downstairs," C. said. "I want to get up Mommy," Ev restated. Suddenly, I realized that I had no idea what time it was. I squinted at the clock and read eleven fifteen. I stripped bed and put the soiled stuff into another pile, and while I made up her crib I heard that coughing-hacking sound. "Maaaahmy. Oh no Mommy," C. said.
Once the bed was made I took her, in her now spit up on pajamas, into the bathroom. She knew exactly what to do. She walked right up to the toilet and grabbed the rim with each hand, elbows pointed up to the ceiling, she stuck her head right in and began to vomit some more. Now there wasn't much left, but her body was just heaving so we sat there and I held her hair back and rubbed her shoulders. She didn't cry, she moaned a bit, but I was startled at how grown-up she looked, with her head in the toilet, handling the experience with her usual efficiency and single-minded determination. "Do you need to throw up more?" I asked. "Yes." And Evan called in, "Tabbell's sick? You all right Tabbell?" "I sick," she called back. "You sick?" "Yes," she confirmed from the toilet bowl in her deep throaty voice made only more so by her current circumstance.
When she seemed to have stabilized, I took her back to the room and changed her pajamas, yet again (we received a large supply of pajamas as hand-me-downs from various people over the years that all suddenly fit this winter thankfully, in case you were wondering). I put her back in bed and went to our room, where I always have stashed her rotational lamb blankie. She hasn't acted like she is aware that her blankie has a stunt double, but she has never been without a 'bah' and it certainly comes in handy at times like those. When I triumphantly returned with the smazing super fast cleaning bah, she had choked up some clear liquid onto the fresh sheet. I got a quilt and spread it over the damp sheet and laid her on top of it. I put a bowl next to her head and instructed her to use it if she needed to. We revisited the topic a few times an hour until somewhere in the 3 a.m. range, when we all slept soundly until Ev's wake up announcement at 5:50. When I went in to get them, he said to me, "Tabbell's sick?" "I sick," said C. "She was sick, yes," I said. "Tabbell sick and she drink out of the potty?" "I NOT drink out of the potty!" C. yelled. "You drink out of the potty you are sick?" He asked. "I sick," she stated proudly. "I sick," Ev said. "You NOT sick. I sick!" she yelled.
The dryer repairman came this morning. We'll get the new part in about 5 days.
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